Transition

Moving again!

That is my life it seems since I was little I don't think I've ever lived in one home for too long. Now that we've been overseas for 11 years we have moved 9 times and this will be our 10th. Yes.. that isn't too great!


This next move is to settle our middle son Justin into life in the states and to get our daughter settled into the states as well for her Senior Year of High School. This move is coming a year earlier than what we had planned but we really felt it was time. I've been ready to come back for our stateside assignment and Kayla was asking us to consider letting her graduate from the states. However, we just didn't have a peace about it until now.


Mind you- We didn't have a house to return to until June 08 but we stepped out and the Lord has provided.

This is where the stress comes for me... Not knowing where we are going to live and then finding out the place is "REALLY" small. I just got all nervous and anxious...

In my head I'm telling myself, " Don't be stupid! Everything is going to work out just fine. The Lord has provided a place for us to live and generous folks have asked to pay our rent for us and some have given money towards our utilities." NOW WHY would I feel NERVOUS or ANXIOUS......

I can't explain it but I just am.... I guess as much as I want to be calm about this move I am nervous and I am anxious about change.

Well, I visited my friend Kim's blog and she shared a word with all her blogging pals -

"It was on contentment! Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned
to him and to which God has called him."
I Corinthians 17:7 (NIV)

Same verse, different version:

"Don't be wishing you were someplace else
or with someone else.
Where you are right now is God's place for you.
Live and obey and love and believe right there."
I Corinthians 7:17a (The Message)

It was what I needed to hear... I just needed to be reminded in gentle way that I was going to the place where God has planned and where He has prepared. I need to trust Him in that and be content - Ps. says, " He has portioned my cup"

I love that because it means God has determined what should be in my cup... How much my cup can hold and H knows me better than anyone. I've waited for the Lord to give the green light for our return for this Stateside assignment and it's taken some time - I've not always waited patiently but I've really tried hard to not push any doors open. This whole event has totally been of the Lord and HIS PROVISION!

YET I worry and get anxious.....

I just needed to be reminded in a gentle and caring way that I do need to be content with what the Lord has portioned me and to be happy..... It is odd, I have lived with no running water, with little or no electricity, with only having 3 rooms total and my surroundings were anything but nice. I was so content... but it wasn't about me... it was about going to the lostness around me. ... I think this time I was / AM currently thinking more about ME and not about what the Lord is thinking about... I know HE cares about ME but I'm secure in HIM.. He knows I want what HE wants, even if I do kick and scream sometimes. :) What I needed to be reminded of is that- this move isn't about me! It's about the lostness that will be around me. If I go into it with that in mind then I know I will be content with all the LORD HAS PROVIDED.....

I am crying even now knowing that I can be content in all things.. I just have to die to self yet again....